Taking a Deep Breath & Stepping Off the Cliff

Over the past few weeks, I have been struggling with a tough decision.  A new management position opened up at the medical practice where I work, and although I love, love, love my current job in administration, I was excited by the opportunity to do something new.  Aside from the fact that I am absolutely terrible at making decisions, I found myself really wrestling with this one.

This pretty much sums up the past few weeks for me

Over the past four years since joining the healthcare system where I work, I've been lucky to have been promoted twice, from coordinator to manager to director.  It's been quite a ride!  I have been challenged and stretched and have learned more than I've ever thought possible.  

But even more than that, I've gained coworkers who have become lifelong friends, soulmates and sisters.  Together, we experience the joys and struggles of working in healthcare, and understand each other like no one else can.  We make each other laugh until it hurts, and we comfort each other when all we can do is close the office door and cry.

Words can't explain how much I love these ladies

Which is why thinking about accepting another job within the organization feels a little bit like moving away from what I've grown to know as "home".  

Many sleepless nights and countless tearful conversations with coworkers over the past few weeks have been me realize how blessed I truly am.  I have a job that I love so much that on Sunday nights, I can't wait for Monday morning.  And I get to work alongside people who challenge me, inspire me, and love me for who I am.  It's really incredible, when I stop and think about it.

But in the end, with the support of my amazing work family, I decided to close my eyes, take a deep breath, and step off the cliff.  I accepted the new position, and I start over the next few weeks!  

 

I am a bit of an emotional train wreck of excited, terrified, heartsick, and elated all at once.  Yikes.  I've been a lot of fun to be around lately, and I don't see that changing anytime soon!  I wish I could fast forward to the part where the turmoil settles down, and I'm fully comfortable in my new role, and I look back and see that this was the best decision I ever made.  

But in the meantime, I'm choosing to embrace the uncertainty.  I won't continue to grow both personally and professionally unless I'm willing to step outside my comfort zone.  And I'll never experience all of the wonder and beauty that lies on the other side, if I don't take that first step forward.  So here goes nothing... Wish me luck!!